Self Esteem

I have got to come up with a better way to feed my self esteem.

Things I have learned about myself this Holiday season.
1. Kudos from online customers will never feed my ego as do kudos from direct contact with a customer face to face.
2. No amount of money from online sales feels as good as one single sale from a personal contact.
3. "You are so talented" coming from my husband feels, well, not to hurt his feelings, but feels like an obligation. The same statement from a stranger feels awesome.
4. I am exhausted and grouchy from all this customer interaction!!!

What a complex fork in the road. I have been mulling over the thought of selling strictly online and in retail shops forgoing the tedious, not very profitable and time sucking shows I sell at every Holiday season. I must ask myself - what is my real mission, my goal in being a knit designer? I know what it's not. It's not hauling in tables, bins and product to high school gymnasiums wooing customers into why they need a $44 dollar cashmere hat. What is it then? It's leaning into this crazy world wide web as a customer, it's being confident in my products, and lastly it's choosing to value my weekends home with the family. Geez, when put that way it sounds easy. So here I go, making a commitment to ending the cycle of Holiday Show co-dependency. So I declare - No More Shows! (please friends remind me of this declaration when the need to feed my esteem creeps up on my around October next year!)